So, I guess I don’t have much to say.. well, I do, but I don’t feel like typing all my feelings out right now. Just part of my feelings. 🙂
So, when I went on a missions trip this summer, God really did some serious work on my heart. More than what I expected. But it was probably the most amazing week of my life thus far. I learned about ridding my heart of sin, becoming a godly young woman, ways I might want to serve God in the future, and drawing near to God.
I encourage every person to go on a missions trip.. I was so challenged in my walk with God and encouraged to desire Him more. I want to go again right now! 🙂 One really cool thing that I learned was about drawing near to God. The pastor who took us on the trip said this a few times before we left on the trip and I think while we were there too.
“Pray until you pray.” “Read until you read.”
To me, I can feel it when I’m just going through the motions of reading my Bible and praying because its what a good Christian is supposed to do. I know when I don’t feel that relational time with God. Not that being close with God is all about feelings, but I also don’t want to become apathetic in my walk with God. I want to have a thirst for Him and for righteousness. And I think those quotes help remind me how to have that thirst.
When praying, pray until you are into it and you are truly pouring your heart out to God. Don’t settle for a quick prayer just to check it off your list. Take time to be still before God and praise Him for who He is. For me, I love to pray with my eyes closed and actually whisper what I’m saying out loud. (of course I’m alone, otherwise people might think I’m creepy haha!) It helps me stay focused on talking with God. Sometimes too, I get down on my knees and sit face down before God. Maybe that’s weird to some people, I don’t know, but it honestly helps me to be humble before God, with that feeling of bowing before Him.
When reading the Word, I struggle more with getting into it. I usually journal about what I read and try to pick out a point of application that I can work on. Currently, I am finishing reading through the book of Judges, and I started reading a Psalm a day with it. Reading through the Psalms has given me so much hope and joy in Christ that I wasn’t expecting! It’s so great, and I encourage you to read through the Psalms to get to know God in a deeper way.
I also want to point out as a last little piece on reading and praying: that it is not always easy to desire God’s Word and time in prayer. It’s easy to become distracted by things in the world, or be weighed down by sin, or even to feel okay without spending time with God. May I encourage you that no matter how you feel or what you are struggling with that it is always an amazing thing to spend time with God. He has given us access to Himself through the death of His Son on the cross, and we brush it off like it’s no big deal. IT IS A BIG DEAL. So take time out to spend with God. 🙂 He deserves it.
Going back to the beginning of this post and how I was talking about missions, I just wanted to share more of my thoughts on that. I absolutely love love love the idea of missions. and I love how God is using missionaries to draw others to Himself. When I came back from the missions trip, I felt somewhat of a call on my heart to possibly pursue missions, especially with the Hispanic culture, in whatever setting that might be. But a friend of mine showed me a video about missions work, and the link to it is here. ——————> A Heart and Passion for God – Paul Washer
Its kind of an intense video, but I love it! At the time I first saw it, it really challenged my heart. It is so easy to romanticize missions especially when you go on a missions trip. You don’t always see the struggle that missionaries go through; they sacrifice everything. That is why I said earlier that I love the idea of missions. Someday, maybe the Lord will draw me to missions and I pray that I would have a desire to be compassionate and reaching out to people with the truth of Jesus Christ. I pray that I would have such a passion for God through knowing Him and that I would have an unquenchable desire to see others come to see Him. Only then will I truly feel called to go to the mission field.
LOL. I ended up writing a ton hah. OH WELL. 🙂 I hope this post challenged you and as always, if I said something that wasn’t accurate with God’s Word, please let me know. I don’t want to lead anyone astray.
To all my already dedicated fans, I love you.